Aura Of Mystery

The bitter truth of us never entwining,

Leaves gaps of despair, clearly visible like new days dawning.

I’d pictured love to be a rose-embedded comfort terrain.

My being longs for your thoughts, sights highlighted only with rusted pain.

Words comfort me, sooth my swollen eyes from this visible strain.

Grieve only when I’m at rest,

Cover me with your warmth, not promising what has remained in the past.

Involve me in your steps in life,

As I will whole-heartedly encourage you to thrive.

Is our future visible, am I appearing artificial?

Some how all that’s sculptured on you is unmistakingly   beautiful.

Your character somehow attractive,

Smart and attentive, all you posses is angelic.

Unseen joy longs  to escape and grace your soul,

Leaving glimmers of my wishes to better mankind encrusted on your being as a whole.

Reside in my poems,

Seems like my visions of our cuddle remain far from my firm hold,

Already bluntly told, never dream for gold.

When it seems I’m only capable of unleashing hurts that either buried or  old.

Is it a never-ending marathon?

Ran only by the luscious and slim many, who seem to win in millions.

Should my energy in binding us richly  end  with yours.

Fight the resistance, press on despite the harsh unspoken course.

Have I lived to the fullest?

Seen and walked with bright souls, graced their sought-after importance.

How we wish to be loved.

Captured, taken to worlds only created by  melodic words.

Spin my inner-thoughts into a twirl,

Drive out all my passions, fulfilling my thirst for love and the feel of sweaty palms rubbing away the dizzy butterflies in my stomach.

A relation of intimacy and involvement is  slow yet growth appears to be frantic.

Am I holding on to the impossible?

Maybe all you house is regarded false, recruiting naïve and gullible girls.

Streams of warm waters easily wet my face.

What could have shaped my out-come left me crushed and wishing for better-looking features.

A dim future, without your existence in it, one might as well not prosper.

3 Feb 2008  Thandi Xaba